the thought of the thought.

maybe i am a tad bit crazy, that doesn't have to be a bad thing. it's how someone chooses to view it. i don't think i am crazy in the sense of a psycho murderer or thinking about hurting people or weird things like that. but in the sense of how i think of things. i think of the thought of the thought. i over think things to the fullest even if it puts me into an uncomfortable position. i don't mind because i can stand the pain, i am not afraid of pain, i want to know everything. everything and anything that might effect me in any type of way. i want to know because it makes me aware. even if it makes me sad. i want to know.