my mind is gone.

when i smoke or drink my mind wanders. it wanders into a place either good or bad. i am the type to get lost into the mood that im in. when i drink or smoke the mood that im in increases and i begin to look at my current situation differently from how i would if i was sober. either in a way of overcome or the opposite of that. this only happens when i end up thinking about shit when im not sober. other than that im chillin